It's been about a month since my last blog post. I know that I've been updating the Pie Me! section of this blog every week, but I don't really consider those blog posts. I took an intentional break from my blog because I wanted to let life sink in for a bit. So much has happened between my last post and this one, and I wanted to savor every bit of it. Not in retrospect, but in the moment.
That's how I've been feeling. Lately I've been feeling like my outer self (the part of me people see and interact with) is moving WAY too fast for my inner self (the emotional part of me that is absorbing everything). I've been feeling like all my inner self wants to do is savor the moments while they're happening, but my outer self can't or doesn't have the time for that. It's both an odd and sad feeling to have.
The feeling of time passing you by.
But that's not the reason for this post. I'm not going to get into all I've been up to right now. I've been updating my FaceBook fan page (The RZP) regularly, so you can connect with me there if you want. I AM writing this post in reflection though. A specific reflection.
Yesterday was my 27th anniversary of my birth.
Looking back on my life, and the memories I've made, I can't help but feel an immense gratefulness that I'm alive. I know that that's an odd sentiment, but every year, my fortunes outweigh my sorrows by far. So many great things have happened to me. Big, small, happy, sad, yes, even sad moments are blessings. But most of all, I'm grateful for everyone I get to share my life with. People I meet, people I've known, will know, thank you.
As much as I've made peace with loneliness, I've come to learn and accept that life is about human connection. Shared experiences between hearts and souls. And every year I see that more and more in my life.
And it feels good. It feels right.
